Happy Birthday, Mom!!! Yesterday was my mom's 70th birthday. We had her and my dad over for dinner and cake on Sunday. Dad was pleasant as pie and mom was as sweet as can be. For those who don't know, my mom has Alzheimer's. She is in the mid to upper stages of this heartbreaking disease. Although she suffers very little (which is a good thing), it is very sad and trying for those around her. My mom was adopted and I truly believe we are carrying on her legacy through the adoption of baby Olivia. My mom's condition makes the wait for our baby even more difficult as we want so much for my mom to understand who Olivia is and why she is here. I've learned that grandchildren light up the eyes of their grandparents, especially those with forms of dementia. So, we hope and pray she will be here in time to light up my mother's beautiful blue eyes. I know it will happen...God will see to it.
My mom's lucky number has always been seven (probably because my brother and I were born in the 7th month). Well, she just turned 70, this is the year 2007, and there is a really good chance that our referral will arrive in July....and a lot of babies currently being referred are around 7 months of age. That would be incredible, huh?
Pray first, but think 7!!!
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Another Wonderful Adventure into Chinatown...
Yes, we pounded the pavement in Chinatown again, and sooooooo glad we did! After going to Federal Plaza with Mom and Dad Davis (so glad to help with Mom's green card renewal!), we all made our way over to the Jing Fong restaurant. Things were a little different this time as it was not an organized event, but we learned a lot about authentic Chinese dining. They had a lunch special call Dim Sum. The waitresses brought carts to tables and guests could choose from a variety of appetizers... we weren't quite sure of the ingredients, but we braved it out anyway! Unbelievably delicious! It was Chinese food in a whole new way...a very authentic way! We will be experts by the time baby Olivia is here. We ordered a couple of entrees to share, ate them, and didn't even realize we received another table's entree until the waiter explained. What an experience, but well worth it!!!
After lunch, we strolled through town. We found a little authentic Chinese market and bought wasabi peas ( a favorite of ours) along with some green tea. Rich hasn't stopped drinking the tea since we arrived home. His system is certainly overflowing with antioxidants! And Mom's face was priceless when she took her first taste of a wasabi pea (these in particular were very high in the horseradish department!).
What a great trip! We can't wait to visit again, and lets hope baby Olivia will be there with us. Soon, baby, soon!
Arrival update:
The wait currently stands at 16.6 months. If it remains the same, she will be with our family by the end of June, but if the time continues to creep up exponentially, then we are looking at August or September. Lets keep the faith and pray that she is in our arms as soon as possible, and as soon as God sees fit!
After lunch, we strolled through town. We found a little authentic Chinese market and bought wasabi peas ( a favorite of ours) along with some green tea. Rich hasn't stopped drinking the tea since we arrived home. His system is certainly overflowing with antioxidants! And Mom's face was priceless when she took her first taste of a wasabi pea (these in particular were very high in the horseradish department!).
What a great trip! We can't wait to visit again, and lets hope baby Olivia will be there with us. Soon, baby, soon!
Arrival update:
The wait currently stands at 16.6 months. If it remains the same, she will be with our family by the end of June, but if the time continues to creep up exponentially, then we are looking at August or September. Lets keep the faith and pray that she is in our arms as soon as possible, and as soon as God sees fit!
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Making connections with others seems to help with the wait...
I took the following post (below in quotes) from another waiting mom's website since I couldn't say it better myself. For the longest time I thought about how this long wait is very similar to the stages of death, and was surprised to see that someone else viewed it in the same way. Please don't be sad because of this posting...the stage where I reside now is somewhere just before the last stage. I am letting go and beginning to realize I have no control over this. The reality is that we are closer than we have ever been!
Here is her posting...Rich and I understand it one hundred percent!
"I believe that I have experienced each stage of grief, in order, in varying degree and duration. I've certainly seen them all expressed by others in the many online groups to which I belong.The 5 stages (and my interpretation of each) are:
1. denial --"there's no way this can be happening, I refuse to believe that we will not have our referral within 6-9 mos as I was promised by my agency, the referral times will certainly speed up, these changes are merely temporary and will have little affect on us in the long run", etc.--I saw a lot of this on the boards for the first few months of the slow down. There were some people who absolutely refused to believe that wait times were lengthening, exponentially. Some on the Yahoo groups became literally incensed if anyone dared to express a belief that we, with 2/06 LID's, would not be home with our children by Halloween, and later Christmas, 2006.It was as if they believed that the mere recognition of the fact that wait times were increasing would somehow cause a longer wait.--personally, I tend to be a pragmatist, and somewhat negative and cynical by nature. I didn't live in the land of denial long at all.
2. anger --"this is ridiculous, how can CCAA be doing this to us, someone must be to blame, my agency intentionally misled me", etc.--during this next stage I read of people even considering lawsuits against their agencies. I was angry for a while, not at anyone in particular, just generally angry.
3. bargaining (pleading) --"surely there will be a change soon, these drastic extensions in the referral process cannot go on forever, this will be the month they will speed up, the wait is due to the bird flu, the Hunan scandal, CCAA moving offices", etc.--I spent a little time here, pleading with the process, imagining how things could be different.
4. depression --this one is rather self explanatory. I've tried very hard not to get depressed but it creeps in. I've spent quite a bit of time being intermittently sad and frustrated. Sometimes it really hit me. The waiting, at times, felt so empty and even hopeless, it was actually physically painful. I think you actually would have to be in the process to truly understand this emotion. I miss and long for a person I havent' met yet. It's weird. I felt pretty sorry for myself and continually lamented the fact that we hadn't begun the process sooner.
And now, I enter.....5. acceptance --TA DA!!! "it will happen when it happens, I will get my baby when the time is right, there is nothing I can do to speed this process--I can only control my feelings and reactions/response to the process", etc.--Here I am. It's official, I have accepted that I have absolutely no control over these circumstances. I recognize the process for what it is. I no longer feel that sense of anger with the fact that the world isn't fair. I don't harbor any false hope that there will be some divine or other intervention that will magicly speed the process and I haven't shed a tear in quite awhile.OK, I've arrived. Now what?"
Here is her posting...Rich and I understand it one hundred percent!
"I believe that I have experienced each stage of grief, in order, in varying degree and duration. I've certainly seen them all expressed by others in the many online groups to which I belong.The 5 stages (and my interpretation of each) are:
1. denial --"there's no way this can be happening, I refuse to believe that we will not have our referral within 6-9 mos as I was promised by my agency, the referral times will certainly speed up, these changes are merely temporary and will have little affect on us in the long run", etc.--I saw a lot of this on the boards for the first few months of the slow down. There were some people who absolutely refused to believe that wait times were lengthening, exponentially. Some on the Yahoo groups became literally incensed if anyone dared to express a belief that we, with 2/06 LID's, would not be home with our children by Halloween, and later Christmas, 2006.It was as if they believed that the mere recognition of the fact that wait times were increasing would somehow cause a longer wait.--personally, I tend to be a pragmatist, and somewhat negative and cynical by nature. I didn't live in the land of denial long at all.
2. anger --"this is ridiculous, how can CCAA be doing this to us, someone must be to blame, my agency intentionally misled me", etc.--during this next stage I read of people even considering lawsuits against their agencies. I was angry for a while, not at anyone in particular, just generally angry.
3. bargaining (pleading) --"surely there will be a change soon, these drastic extensions in the referral process cannot go on forever, this will be the month they will speed up, the wait is due to the bird flu, the Hunan scandal, CCAA moving offices", etc.--I spent a little time here, pleading with the process, imagining how things could be different.
4. depression --this one is rather self explanatory. I've tried very hard not to get depressed but it creeps in. I've spent quite a bit of time being intermittently sad and frustrated. Sometimes it really hit me. The waiting, at times, felt so empty and even hopeless, it was actually physically painful. I think you actually would have to be in the process to truly understand this emotion. I miss and long for a person I havent' met yet. It's weird. I felt pretty sorry for myself and continually lamented the fact that we hadn't begun the process sooner.
And now, I enter.....5. acceptance --TA DA!!! "it will happen when it happens, I will get my baby when the time is right, there is nothing I can do to speed this process--I can only control my feelings and reactions/response to the process", etc.--Here I am. It's official, I have accepted that I have absolutely no control over these circumstances. I recognize the process for what it is. I no longer feel that sense of anger with the fact that the world isn't fair. I don't harbor any false hope that there will be some divine or other intervention that will magicly speed the process and I haven't shed a tear in quite awhile.OK, I've arrived. Now what?"
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